Frustration with anxiety?

Excuse me while I vent here. For the first time in almost 8 years my anxiety/panic has come back full force. I have had a lot to deal with in the last 2 years which I know contributes to my anxiety. I have travelled extensively, skydived, taken care of my kids and myself for years with no help and now; I feel like I'm afraid I'll go crazy if I sit on an airplane too long or I'll say something insane or I'll lose it and end up in a mental ward. I know this is all symptomatic, but it doesn't ease my thoughts. Anyway, does anyone ever really conquer this? Can I really do this without medicine? Last time I took it I felt out of it and didn't like it one bit. I see a therapist but all the "talk" is getting old and I'm frustrated. Any thoughts would be appreciated. Thanks